silent

no music no words

no movement once heard

the breath that whispers

the resonating shiver of a soul once bound

found light

blackness punctured in the silent night

all light from the One,

His voice mellow streaming

quiet faces gleaming

hearts graceful screaming

proclaiming

i am free.

frustration and faith

every day is a new battle...

every step is a complaint unspoken.

but i refuse to depend on man to stop this.

God did not bring this on me.

He will heal me...

and i believe that with all of my heart.

"I believe you're my healer;

I believe you are all i need."

blessings

God is so amazing.

I just cannot begin to even explain what He has done for me. 

First He just tells me to not worry about anything...

"Cast all your cares on me and stuff...."

and so thats so easy and wonderful and stress relieving.

and thennnn He REWARDS me for doing so....

In the past two days, I have felt God so strongly in a totally new way.

I have discovered over time the definition of truly and beautifully getting lost in worship. Lose Yourself.

He comes in ways so simplistic....His mercy relaying His intricate thoughts so delicately to my heart in ways that I can understand.

I've tasted love so refreshing.

God is truly pouring out His blessings on my life.

I am at want for absolutely nothing.

Everyday is a new page in my love story.

Be still my soul, be still.

my beloved

My epiphanies so often consist of the most common sense realities.

Tonight, it dawned on me that God delights in me..i am his daughter, his bride.

He thinks I am beautiful...wow! What a wonderful thought to have.

He sings to us:

You're My Beloved
You're My Bride
To sing over you is My delight
Come away with Me My love

You're Beautiful to Me
So beautiful to Me

Under My mercy
Come and wait
Till we are standing face to face
I see no stain on you
My child

You're Beautiful to Me 
So Beautiful to Me

I sing over you My song of peace
Cast all your care down at My feet
Come and find your rest in Me

I'll breathe My life inside of you
I'll bear you up on eagle's wings
And hide you in the shadow of My strength
I'll take you to My quiet waters
I'll restore your soul
Come rest in Me and be made whole

You're My beloved
You're My Bride
To sing over you is my delight
Come away with me my love

rainy days call for new songs, or parts of them.

i followed this trail into the woods

interesting, that shiny gold glint

i couldn't see beyond the light

lost and haven't found my way yet

a thousand choirs singing me on

pointing and dancing, laughing and crying

tell me today, change it tomorrow

not taken and given up trying.

so throw me like a ragdoll

change my hair, my mouth, my face

and tell me that you love me

tell me stop running when all i know is chase

sing me to sleep and comb out this tangly hair

go to sleep my dear baby and don't call me crazy

just point out a way out of here.

today

was so surprising...

timing is something i've never had good luck with.

but bad timing can keep life exciting.

question:

do i keep life safe and stay in the lines?

or try something new, consequences be darned...?

i think i decided before i even asked.

closing old doors and opening new ones.

i feel like my life is getting ready to take on a new adventure...the setting: the same, the people: same also, but for some reason everything feels so new.

Jesus is so close to me...i love to worship Him.  My relationships are fresh.  I've fought, fell, and finally forgiven.  My heart has the ability to give again.

Lately, I have just felt such a longing to get closer to God...i want every piece of me to be with every piece of Him.

This semester has been so comfortable but sooo hard...WHEN GOD TELLS YOU TO DO SOMETHING, DO IT! sometimes...its hard to follow His will when it doesn't really affect you, but rather those closest to you. however, His direction is not to be debated. this is a lesson i have had to learn. those around me don't always operate on faith alone; facts somehow seem to control their day. i am ashamed to say that the comfort of those around me momentarily came before the will of God for me...never again.  

I can never be without His hand around mine.

I'm so ready to be back to this place...i can't wait to take the next step.

i'm married to my Creator.